Allow me to re-introduce myself...

Author: jlove
Date Posted: 04-28-2008 10:48 AM

The feeling and theme of my life over the last while has been about Pure Potentiality, trusting myself, and staying in the Flow. I have a fabulous life (probably more on that part another time :)!! I'm gonna break it down... I knew that when it was time to blog it out, I would feel it - so here I am... going with the flow...

Like many of the brilliant bloggers who have posted here (thank you all!), and most likely many of you reading, I, too, have felt my own spiritual evolution on fast-track lately... Specifically over the past year, and most recently, it feels like it's been 'kicked up' about a thousand notches - since the illuminating Awarness Architect training, where I just so happened (heehee) to meet my divine, loving (and divine-loving :) spiritual partner. I have been feeling the intense heat from the brightest light of Truth, if you will :-). Soooo, here's a bit of what I'm about right Now:

Committing to unconditional Love with my partner - perceived, at first, to be outwardly directed - ultimately realizing, I am committing to myself. Committed to unconditional Love for myself, accepting what IS, no matter what, is the only way to for me to have true unconditional love for anyone else. Can it be that Easy? YES! Has it felt that easy? NOOO!!! The ego and all of it's deeply (or not so deeply) buried negative self-talk, conditioning, stories, and beliefs is out to WIN - Win at all costs, as it has been programmed and re-inforced to do all along - the cost, however, is inner peace and true happiness! Hell no, E.G.O. Hell? no.

Consistent daily mediation practice - Essential - creating the clear, calm space between thoughts for the Truth to be heard/felt. The Ego is loud and incessant, the Truth just IS. If I do not give myself this time for silence and, instead, buy into the mindchatter, the stories, I can miss the choice that exists - I don't have to continue to unconsciously choose the same thing based on past experience. I do not have to contribute to and re-inforce the stories. I Have a choice, in every moment. If I miss the opportunity for that choice because the thoughts are running so fast all the time, all the time, without ever a spec of space - It gets to seem real, like there is no choice. Truth? Nope. How to stop? Accessing the inner silence and stillness, the awareness, who I really Am. The space and my opportunity for that choice becomes more and more apparent.

Setting intentions. For me, they are clear when authenticity and Self-trust are in place, and the 'ear' is tuned to the inner awareness rather than the chatterchatter of egoic wants, which are fear-based. It's not always so simple, however, I have realized that, in this state, the intentions are coming through me (or to me). When I am attuning myself to unconditional love and higher purpose, aware of making conscious choices in the present moment- anything and everything I could ever ask for, want, or 'need' is already DONE - already there waiting, or here now - however you'd like to put it. Then, it feels like I am just picking up on the vibration of what IS- like a preview so that I am open to receiving - and giving - when those situations, people, or things appear. Letting go of my ego story around howwhatwhenwherewhywho (pretty much sounds all crammed in like that) - what it has to look like. Essentially, helping me to get out of my own way.

Taking the "them" out of it. Bringing every challenging situation, or judgement, I have with with, or about, anyone back to ME - being honest, without guilt or blame - What are they (is this) showing me? What is the story that I am defending and/or projecting? Is it TRUE? Pretty much NONE of my B.S. (as Max would say, ummm, Belief System) will hold up in the light of Truth. It is a thought or thoughts that I have made up, decided to believe in, and keep re-inforcing with more B.S. My Truth really comes from the space of awareness when I am able to hear or feel what my unique purpose is, in the present moment. Everything that I am seeking from others is really something that I am seeking from myself. The best part is that I don't even have to seek... it's already there! When I am able to truly BE, not just intellectually know, what it is that I am seeking, it is, Ta-Da!, reflected back to me. Wow.

It can seem like alot of 'work'... always re-introducing myself to myself. It's more work for me to stress or be unhappy over thoughts that aren't the Truth. Much more work. So, when I forget who I Am, all of these practices help me to hear a gentle, "hey, I know this is who you Think you are... allow me to re-introduce myself..."

my name is Love, jlove. :)

xo,

jodi

Comments

EuGenius said:

Awsome JLove!!!

The principles you touched on are sooo power-full. Its always so easy for people to "talk" spiritual principles all day long, however, once you knee deep in B.S. then tell me about your friggin calm space and breath techniques huh!? You've abviously been workin these tools and concepts in this grand experiment, so thank you for being authentic.

By the way, whose the lucky partner ;)

EuGenius.........

May 2, 2008 5:01 PM

About jlove

At the age of 18, the conflict between my inner truth - who I actually Am, and who I was pretending to be in the world became too great... My system said, "Shut her down!". I was so physically and mentally fatigued that I could no longer function normally in life, let alone at the perfectionist level I had been pushing :). Depression, confusion, loneliness, guilt, and anger ensued on and off for a long time. Even though I had been unhappy, I was so attached to the familiarity of living that life. I felt guilty whenever I allowed myself to feel even a bit relieved, that I had an excuse not to be that "perfect" girl anymore. I kept thinking, "Ok, Now what?". About two years into the "illness", I came accross a book at the library about yoga and meditation. My inner voice piped up loudly, "YES!". I practiced regularly and felt alive again! With each day, ever so subtly, I was able to see and hear what was really going on. Things started to click. I was introduced to a gifted healer who helped me to ask myself the right questions and, more importantly, to trust the answers. Soon after, from this centered, clear place that I was quietly cultivating, the realization came that I had to follow my own Truth, despite how diffficult it may seem or, how crazy it may look to everyone else. I dropped out of University, and enrolled in a month-long, intensive Yoga Teacher's Training program. Eleven years later... I am forever a student and life continues to get better and better! I am Happy being who I Am and doing what I love, with wonderful people, in beautiful places. I teach others the tools that I have learned (and continue to learn) to help them listen to, define, and follow their own Truth... to be Authentic, if you will :), which, in turn, supports and reflects my own Authenticity! Life is abundant and amazing. I am so Grateful.