Things Fall Apart

Dude, Brother Achebe SAID IT.

It never ceases to amaze and amuse me how quickly the ship sinks when we start to rock the boat. We decide to take on our lives in massively powerful ways, and all that stuff that we thought was stability starts to crumble and tumble, leaving us stumble-steppin our way to heaven on earth...Lawd is it a rocky road, yo.

I've decided to step up (as I have been for the last two years), and enter the next experiment in this thrilling game we call livin. I've taken on a new gig, been meditating twice a day, and speaking my intentions clearly and truthfully, as opposed to candy coating and hiding in the shadows...can only bring greatness, right?

Well if you see it all as great, then damn straight. But many of us judge "good" and "bad." (yes, even meditators :) I see *** fallin off, and I get to freak out for half a second about everything going "wrong." This week alone, I've had all but two clients cancel, two dates bail at the last minute, been hit by a car, and found myself staring at my computer screen for ridiculous amounts of time wondering what the hell I'm doing/supposed to be doing.

And ya know what? It's all good. But to take the polarity judgement out of the equation (good/bad, right/wrong, fixed/broken...), it's all God. Alpha and Omega...the simple, I Am.

I feel blessed to recognize that behind every breakdown is a breakthrough. All this stumble-steppin is right in line with my divine timing. It's such a gift to simply be aware of the process, so as not to get too caught up in it all. I feel it, for sure, but I also know that this feeling is transient in nature.

All I ask is that you don't give up on me. Believe. It's in these hours of illuminated shadow that we most need the strength of our community, and when we continue to hold one another to the highest light, we find that we all start living there.

And when everything feels super stable (and just a little stagnate), start rockin. The boat may sink, but we're buoyant beings.

Jayo.