Let's shake it up a little more

That's one of the reasons why I love u Max, your candor and willingness to share your growth with us!!! It is refreshing.

As I read your blog, I could definately relate. The relationship between the mind and our feelings is an amazing one. I have tried embracing some unpleasant feelings before, and was unable to get them to go away, but I have heard that this technique is useful for many people.

I have found recently that if I recognize that our thoughts are often fleeting (not permenant), also often random (thoughts come & go, sometimes with no apparent logic) and that often I feel I can't stop certain thoughts (like when trying to meditate - I want them to slow down, and sometimes they just keep coming).  

With this awareness, I have come to accept that my thoughts do not always benefit my highest good, and thus can come from my ego.  I then focus on something that is beautiful and brings loving feelings of peace to me, knowing that what ever I am feeling at the time (less than peace) will soon pass.

Emotions always change... as you have said.  It is good to remember that when feeling less than peaceful.  Allowing ourself the freedom to observe our feelings, but not have to act upon the ones that do not resonate with our higher good.

Thanks for sharing... u are amazing and I look forward to visiting u in LA LA land :-)

with love & light,

Janan

So this is funny. I was just talking to my mother, telling her how disappointed I am in myself. I have come a long long way  with the way I handle unethical and cruel people. I used to hit them so hard with things that I knew were below the belt when they would hurt me. To the point that I was no better then them, but my outrage was/is so strong for things and people that are morally off and unethical. I was blinded by that rage. So now I am noticing that I am being tested in many areas with this. Almost as if my ego knows that I am not comfortable with this reaction anymore and wants me to have to deal with this reality. So I noticed that I am more composed when tested, these people are hurtful to me and do sink to the level of hitting me below the belt. Yet as the hurtful things for me to hit back with pop up to say to them I am not saying them. The disappointment came when I realized that  although I was not acting on these things I wanted to say the beast is still there inside. Maybe even worse because I wont give my ego the satisfaction of saying and doing these horrible things. When I shared with my mom my disappointment in myself she very sweetly reminded me that true detachment takes time and patience, that I do not need to be disappointed but rather be in the moment with these feelings allow them to be there and validate them and the ego. take the higher road with the dealings of these beings because it is karmicly wise not to hit below the belt and hurt, but our ego needs the satisfaction to say what it is feeling and feel what it is feeling, but there are tools to allow that without hurting anyone else. Going into meditation and using the movie theater  to say what my ego wants to say, or even by making up a song and singing all that stuff while I clean. But it was important to be with this feeling in a very present way so that I can move thru them instead of being in disappointment and pushing them away creating a lingering resentful situation for myself. So I think I rambled a bit. But thanks for listening. Good luck Max with your move, it will be wonderful!

Love Love Love,

Jai Ram Kaur

COME LIVE BY ME AT THE BEACH!!! :)  

I had the EXACT same feelings four months ago (I actually had to count them out on my fingers as I can't believe its been THAT long already!)  Like you, everything seemed to be pointing me in this direction, my television career, my long distance boyfriend of two years, more opportunities, etc etc etc but there was a huge BUT. . . my family, friends, job, newly purchased house, and the idea of leaving all that behind to "grow up" scared the ever-livin' outta me!  

But after the many meditation and prayer sessions I learned that those feelings are normal. Change is hard, scary, and perhaps even a lonely process, ....but its all necessary... to grow... to discover even more about yourself.  You need to be here.  Actually, I take that back, LA needs YOU to be here:)  

Call me, us "newbees" will check out the city together!