Over the last few months, I have noticed a shift in myself. Situations where I once felt totally comfortable make me a little nervous. Circumstances where I would normally feel afraid don't phase me. ?" I've found myself feeling out-of-sorts more often then usual lately.
Everything is constantly changing and it's our intention (as selfcentered people) to flow with it. Got it. But what happens when those internal changes seem inherently counter-productive to your own evolution. Then what?
My most recent challenge has come from something I would never have guessed - public speaking. I've have spent the last 5 years of my life on-stage. I've spoken to thousands of people. I've trained hundreds of people. It's a space that I have always felt really comfortable it.
But lately, I've been second-guessing myself; and it's no fun.
As I've sat with this energy a bit, I've realized that I have always spoken to people who were ready to listen - people who are there on their own accord. But lately, I've started to speak in places where the corporation brings me in to speak to the employee's. In that setting, the employee's are there despite whether they choose to be or not. In fact, I've had to do a few talks where they didn't even tell them (the employees) that I was coming in until they threw me on stage. Talk about testing my centerdeness.
Some of these talks have gone extremely well and some haven't. What I've come to realize throughout my last slew of engagements is that not everyone is ready to evolve. No matter how compelling, how witty, or how intriguing I am, some people just don't give a sh*t. As an eternal optimist, that's hard to swallow. I've always wanted to believe that people have an inherent desire to be happy. That in the right packaging, everyone appreciates new tools that help them evolve. Right?
But it doesn't seem to be true. Or maybe it's my approach? That unknown factor about why people won't engage is making me totally nervous to speak in front of new groups. I clearly see that the solution is to detach, have fun, and let it flow. Some will gain, some won't care, and that's all good. Everybody is on their path. Like I said, I got it. But there is something in me that is having a difficult time feeling that.
Any suggestions?
Posted
Feb 21 2008, 08:28 AM
by
Max Simon