Is it lonely at the top?

M-mindful

A-astral

X-eXperimental

Thanks for putting yourself out there!

Since there is no top or bottom and we are all in a big mesh, alone seems far away.  Lonely, however,  often comes at the drop of one's eyes. Of course it is all a matter of perspective.

We are always connected, and when we get comfortable in that connection, we move to lonely, so we can come back to connect in an even stronger way.

My deepest connections have always come from meditation. In this connection everything minimizes and gets very quiet. In that very instance, it is almost as if the whole universe begins to laugh out loud. It goes from light to dark, dark to light very fast. Everything is still, yet at the same time the molecules seem to be racing. I have never found an adequate way to describe this "connection", but it is the most pleasurable sensation I have yet to experience. ( yes, even better than the all pervading "orgasm"!)

Funny how when we aim at one pointed focus our target ends up being multi-faceted.

When I am exhausted, it feels real. When I am angry, it feels real. When a friend comes by, in thought or person, and reminds me to smile, my reality shifts. Suddenly exhaustion evaporates and anger subsides. Love blooms and than nothing else seems real but that "connection" to joy.

The closest relationship I have  everyday, comes in the form of my breath. Whether I am listening to the store clerk or receiving words from my lover, my breath always takes me back to the closest connection ever.

A wise person once shared with me this: " When someone is talking, whoever it is, follow your own breath. It will help you to stay connected to the person sharing. Since we are all one, tuning in to your own breath will instantly tune you into anothers' . "  As the wise person spoke this I found myself following my breath and hearing what was shared in a deeper way than ever before.

What this all means I am not sure, but I do know that to

smile, breathe,  makes a reality of a difference. :)

Love & Hugs,

Rox

It is the profound sense of responsibility you feel when you lead. You never want to feel like you didn't do enough. It is much easier to know you did everything you could to make something successful than to think you could have done more. If you did everything you could and it wasn't successful then you know it wasn't meant to be. Focus is everything and it is almost impossible to justify focusing on anything other than actions that would benefit the vision/company...especially as more people get involved.  This is not the case when you are not leading and it is why it can be lonely. No one else shares the burden of success/failure like you.

What is success? what is failure? Can you fail? When you fail doesn't it provide you with the lessons and experience that ultimately get you closer to success? Knowing what doesn't work seems like a success....

Now that my sleepy sometimes capitalist skewed mind has rested I wanted to provide more color on this. I think the only way to really be successful is to line up what you are doing with your life path (you cant just be good at what you do...it has to fit into your purpose). How can you know your purpose if you don't know yourself? I think this is the problem many people face. People are listening to what their ego wants. If you can tame your ego and let your spirit speak and speak often....your path will become obvious and the only way to do this is through meditation. As the mind chatter clears...your spirit will begin to speak up and show you the way. I often go into meditation and ask "what do I really want?"

"fail" is such an ugly word...you can never fail if you see the experience (the lessons) in what you did and experience always brings you closer to success.

from Max's original post above:

"Manifesting a global vision is much more difficult then I ever gave it credit. It takes way more time, energy, and focus then I ever expected."

From my experience the "lonely" feeling comes from having a different experience than others when your leading the vision. You have to pay closer attention to your choices as your choices become more important as more people get involved and there is greater investment. This is the focus part Max mentions above. Your focus has to go into a different gear and stay there and your the only one experiencing it on the level you are. Can you be unsuccessful with Max's vision? no. Every step along the path of helping others lead more fulfilling lives earlier in their life is a success. Don't forget this brother. You also happen to be doing something that fits perfect into your life path which turns this vision into a "not if" but "when" to bring on 1m.  (sorry about my short capitalist hedge fund guy response above) I love you, peace Jeff